In Between....

This is where I am...
Stuck between a college student and an outstanding member of society.

[ Orange Days, オレンジデイズ ]

Frustration Kicks In

- " If you don't go job-hunting, what do you plan to do ? "

" And.. i'm ask this question again. First i don't like wearing formal wear. Secondly i don't want to turn into one of those people who live just to serve others. Are Interviews fun ? "

- " They are boring.. But i don't want to stay in a boring school forever. What are you going to do in the future ? "

" Sorry i can't become a salaryman. i would be lucky if i could but every day 9 to 5, in a office ? Sounds boring to me. "

- " You think i'm arrogant. But the people at the companies say "Well, this guy takes his test well. This year he will contine to work diligently." Isn't that great ? "

" I understand what you mean. When taking the company's interviews/tests , those people glow. I think those people carefully decided their careers. That's the image they give off. For me, when i graduate, i can't say where or who i'll turn out to be. But I don't want to turn out into that type of person. "

- " What's for you then ? What kind of person are you ? Is there anything special about you ? "

" That's irrelevant isn't it? Leave me alone !! "

[ Orange Days, オレンジデイズ ]

Where is that Girl ??

Where is that girl from 5 years ago ?? Why can't i seem to find her ? Those youthful exuberance, those carefree attitude, those mental strength, those ongoing determination, those smiles... the world was her oyster. Somehow she slowly faded away, unknowingly, into a deep sleep that she is deperately trying to wake up from. I want that girl back... please. That girl was full of life!! That girl was full of hope!! That girl was ME.

[ Excerpt From "Within You" ]