"Life is fun" When She's With Me.

What is this that I'm feeling. I can't understand it !

Why does it feel different?

Through the years, I've seen her grown, developed and change . But to me #### will always be the #### I knew from secondary school days. A friend is someone that no matter how much time passes, or our circumstances change, they will always continue to treat me the same. Most importantly she let me be me.

We've been friends since 14. Out of 365, we were together 300 days - either hanging out or on the phone. Sometimes the call would be like " What are you doing? " " Outside.... " The call will end like that. Lasting only 60 seconds. But sometimes the conversation will carry on, becoming a lengthy one. We are both stubborn. We do pisses each other off. However everytime whenever we are reaching our limits, like I have my own problems, and so does she, I always wanting to end up talking it out with her and she with me.

When I'm with her, I feel reassured. She has that kind of an existence. I like to randomly call her for no particular reason. It seems natural to just call her - when I'm irritated or troubled, sometimes w/o making her known. She always says I'm forever bored. She always say I'm afraid of loneliness. That I can't do anything alone. But "Life is fun" when she's with me.

This last year.. what is that feeling inside? Something seems to be holding me back. It doesn't seems natural anymore. I hate it.

I will always be the girl she knew in secondary school..

Enclosed : Kizuna

Kizuna (Bond) - A Dedication to Friendship.

No matter how much I think about the future,
No one sees what's really happening.
Something gets stuck in the gap of my heart,
It's just a mistake that I've been repeating.

Its okay if it's one step at a time, Just don't let go of my hand.
The steps that we took together, You are going to keep on living.
Even if we're torn apart, till we're ragged.
The bond of that time, that place will never disappear.

Making sure we don't lose it in the flow of time.
Passing by, our real thoughts & feelings collided.
Permeated my heart, into warm memories.
That we met is the miracle I longed for.

Even when things couldn't stand still, amidst the pain.
I saw the light inside, because we were bound together.
It's okay if you lied; It's okay if you cry.
The bond of that time, that place will never disappear.

Its okay if its' one step at a time, Just don't let go of my hand.
The steps that we took together, You are going to keep on living.
Even if we're torn apart, till we're ragged.
The bond of that time, that place will never disappear.

[ Kizuna (Bond), Kamenashi Kazuya]

When's The Last Time You Asked Me " Are You OK? "

Some Words just need no saying, You can just feel it.

You may enjoy the friends you laughed with, But what about those who cried with you ?

Here's to The Shit we Talk,
The Boys we Stalk,
The Way we Shop,
The Laughs we cant Stop,
The Dumb Jokes we Crack,
The Gossip we Spill,
The Movie Popcorn we Share,
The Future we Dream,
The Shoulder we Cry On,
The Ears we Lend,
The Money we Borrow,
The Friday Night Hang Outs and Afternoon Walks,
The Midnight Calls and Private Talks.
Here's to Friends Forever?

The sky isn’t always blue; The sun doesn’t always shine,
It’s ok to fall apart sometimes.