"Life is fun" When She's With Me.

What is this that I'm feeling. I can't understand it !

Why does it feel different?

Through the years, I've seen her grown, developed and change . But to me #### will always be the #### I knew from secondary school days. A friend is someone that no matter how much time passes, or our circumstances change, they will always continue to treat me the same. Most importantly she let me be me.

We've been friends since 14. Out of 365, we were together 300 days - either hanging out or on the phone. Sometimes the call would be like " What are you doing? " " Outside.... " The call will end like that. Lasting only 60 seconds. But sometimes the conversation will carry on, becoming a lengthy one. We are both stubborn. We do pisses each other off. However everytime whenever we are reaching our limits, like I have my own problems, and so does she, I always wanting to end up talking it out with her and she with me.

When I'm with her, I feel reassured. She has that kind of an existence. I like to randomly call her for no particular reason. It seems natural to just call her - when I'm irritated or troubled, sometimes w/o making her known. She always says I'm forever bored. She always say I'm afraid of loneliness. That I can't do anything alone. But "Life is fun" when she's with me.

This last year.. what is that feeling inside? Something seems to be holding me back. It doesn't seems natural anymore. I hate it.

I will always be the girl she knew in secondary school..

Enclosed : Kizuna